As I was speaking with someone close to me recently, I was reflecting on what the last two years have looked like in our lives. Yesterday was my two-year anniversary of leaving corporate America and it is hard to believe it has already been that long. It feels like the last two years have happened in the blink of an eye and yet there has been so much life and change during that time.
When the Lord placed me in my job at an up and coming (now successful and established), amazing non-profit right out of the gates of corporate America I thought I had found my place. I was convinced that it was where I was meant to be for the long haul. After all, God organized the whole thing (still such a crazy cool story). During the time that I worked there, my local church offered me a contracted admin position in an effort to re-evaluate what the needs of the church were in an administrative capacity. We had just walked through some changes and it was the perfect time for me to step in, be an extra set of hands, and it was God’s miraculous provision in meeting our needs financially.
I worked there for 9 months when the Lord called me to step away and commit all of my time to the non-profit. I had anticipated that the Lord would open the floodgates of provision and make a way through that job but that wasn’t quite His plan. Nonetheless, we remained obedient. As a result, we walked through some tight financial months as well as major heartaches in our personal life after the miscarriage. In every tight month though, the Lord provided our daily bread, emotionally, financially, and so forth. It wasn’t until months after walking away from working at the church that I realized how at-home I felt being there. Surprised? I was!
At the beginning of the summer the Lord began to stir even more strongly in my heart and call me back to our local church but I was unsure of what that would look like. Long story short, after months and months of seeking Him and His will (and admittedly resisting), I finally realized, in yet another abrupt way that the time to act was now! There were only a few people that I confided in during this seeking time because I was so uncertain as to what it even meant and I wanted to see the Lord prepare the way. Sure enough, he did. After three months of personal and private seeking and ultimately saying yes to the leading the Lord placed on my heart, it didn’t take more than three weeks for everything to fall into place. Every single prayer that I prayed during that 3 month time period, every argument I made as to why this wouldn’t work and every resistant movement I attempted was addressed and then some!
Over the last couple of years there have been a series of moments that God has walked me through but now I’m able to see that as God was walking me through moments, he was preparing me for a movement; a movement in my heart, a movement in my expectations, a movement in my plans.
More recently, He has put me in positions and places in which he exposes me to things I never expected. I am slowly learning that before I react to these things, it is necessary for me to ask, “Lord, was this just a moment or is this the beginning of a movement?” Trust me when I say that he is faithful to answer that question in bold and powerful ways.
Depending on his answer, I can tailor my prayers accordingly. When I know that it was a moment then I can pray for release, willingness and obedience, or forgiveness. When He shows me that it is a movement then I begin to seek Him in the process and ask for wisdom as far as my involvement and role.
Listen friends, I know the Lord can take us in unexpected and uncomfortable directions but we need to trust that our presence there is not a coincidence. It is up to us to be responsible with that placement. Anyone close to us knows that there has not been a lot of comfort in our lives over the last two years financially or materially but I can sit and tell story after story after story of the bold movement we have participated in. And this life of obedience is absolutely a life worth living.
So here I sit, working in a place I never anticipated, doing things that only the Lord can qualify me for and trusting God in the moments and during the movement.
I challenge you today, if there is something taking place that has rocked you or made you uncomfortable, ponder whether it is simply a moment you need to pass through or it is a movement you need to participate in. Believe me, God will give you the answer and He will be faithful in the process.
Moment or movement aside, remember Proverbs 19:21 “You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.”