Today I am struggling with a large feeling of disappointment. I had gotten my hopes up so much for something that I stayed up late last night day dreaming certain situations and scenarios. I was so certain that things were going to go my way this time.
Today, that changed and I am brought back to reality. The scenarios I played out in my mind last night aren't going to happen. I don't get to see the things I had dreamed of...yet.
The thing that I am struggling with is, "Why not God? Why can't I have this? Why do I have to wait? When will it be my turn?"
I am having a really hard time getting past feeling sorry for myself. Right now is a time when I just need a kick in the pants that says, "Dana, get over yourself." Well, not really in those words but God probably should say that to me. I know I deserve it.
I am so focused on my sadness, resentment and disappointment that it is making me blind to the present. This is why I am choosing to shift my attitude.
Again, I don't know what is going to happen in my life but I know that the Lord knows the desires of my heart and He is always with those who are faithful. Today, I am choosing to remain faithful. Today, I am choosing to pick myself up, brush myself off and ask, "Lord, what can I do for you today?" Maybe today I can forget about myself for a moment and remember that God created me for His plan, not my own. His plan is good. His plan is faithful. His plan is the best thing for my life, even when I don't feel like agreeing with it.