I have been convicted lately in feeling that I've been highlighting the negative of my life more often than I have been giving praise for the good that exists right now. While I believe in transparency and being honest with my thoughts, I also believe in pressing into the positive and I'm tired of not being able to do that so this is my active effort to shift into positivity, joy and hope.
I wrote a while ago that Jake and I were functioning in SERVE-ival mode and I'm happy to say that while we are still in a season of seeking our daily bread on a daily basis, the Lord has given us the ability to dream once again. Although, this dreaming is not in regards to our personal lives but in regards to dreaming of how WE can make a positive impact on God's kingdom with our time here on earth.
I believe Brian Houston would refer to this as kingdom dreaming and it is far better than any dreaming I've ever been able to do on my own. These dreams that are laid upon our hearts are dreams that are not of us but ones that we are called to participate in. We have no idea how they will happen, when they will happen, or our exact involvement in them besides the fact that we are called to steward them and when the time is right work with in the Lord's strength and provision to make them happen.
Kingdom dreams come from hearts of complete abandonment and a deep deep desire to simply honor God with all that we are. All that we have. All that we can do. In the pursuit of God's calling on our lives He has highlighted giftings within us that almost feel foolish yet, we can be encouraged that they are there because our Creator has put them there. Do you know what it feels like to have a spirit-filled self-worth? Amazing.
In kingdom dreaming, the Lord highlights how past experiences and current experiences are leading you and forming you for something greater than you could imagine. My friend so beautifully prayed yesterday, "thank you, Jesus, for giving us God-sized dreams as humans because we know that they can only be accomplished by you working through us."
The best part is that our Kingdom dreams almost take us entirely out of it and we can wholly put it on God to help us foster and steward their development in His time. It takes one step of obedience at a time. One day of serving at a time and a faith-filled boldness that seems foolish to the world but yet - God is faithful.
We are in another season of waiting to see exactly how God will bring the evolution of these dreams to pass. My goodness, you guys! There is some seriously exciting stuff that God has planned for someday and such a time as this. God has such a heart for us all and even more excitingly he is calling my husband and I into these dreams together. What a sign of faithfulness to the covenant of marriage. God is so good.
Today I simply write to express my gratitude for the ability to kingdom dream and to do so with my husband. I'm grateful for the opportunity to sit front row and watch my husband's heart and passions evolve into something that will revolutionize relationship. Thank you, Jesus, for this life and showing up in the midst of the trenches.